1 year and 3 months later

It's been 1 year and 3 months since my last blog- so what's happened since?

It's my final semester as a university student. Naturally you'd assume that I'd be getting drunk every week and going nuts with parties. Unfortunately I'm buried 3ft in work, trying to study for exams and complete assignments on time. If anything, I'm working harder than ever as it's my last chance to improve my 'barely above average' grades. But I'm okay with the work. I've come to understand and appreciate that nothing worthwhile ever comes easy and that genuine strength is only gained under pressure.

So far the most important lesson 2008 has taught is about the reality of living, about how hard it is to achieve your goals and that there will always be someone better than you. More importantly I've learned how things will change with the most unexpected catalysts- in my case, a change friendships. So far this year I've been rejected by dozens of employers, been the 2nd choice of one company (and accepted), served a subpoena for court, witnessed a drastic change in friendships and witnessed the aftermath of some stupid decisions. It's been a big year and for the most of it, it's been a good year. I'm continually learning new things about myself and about other people.

The biggest challenge I'm faced with right now is the question of balance. I continually ask myself "what price are you willing to pay?Your social life? your friends? your family? a relationship?". I know people have achieved their goals with balance but I wonder if I'm capable of it. I guess I'll just have to work at it and hopefully come up with an answer that won't result in social isolation (or is that the solution to this problem?).

Well that's it for tonight kids. I'll end this post like I used to in high school, with a quote.

"An explanation of cause is not a justification by reason."- C.S. Lewis